the unspoken truths.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

counting down.

John Mayer - Bigger than my body

Yes I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I'm bigger than my body now

seriously, can't wait for the last paper to end.

ps: he's just one amazing talent!

and i see zac efron in him.
okay let the singings do the talking.

12:03 AM

Monday, November 02, 2009

telling myself: i can do it.

Chris Brown - Save Me

Devotion to that higher ground
is day by day slowly fading

*SCREAMS*
3more days to really get ready for the battlefield.
am i up for it?

12:15 AM

Saturday, October 31, 2009

get me outta here!

Taylor Swift - Jump Then Fall

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I’ll shine for you

One splendid talent that keeps me admire her a hell lot.
I want to play the guitar as well as her.
(i ever think about writing a song, and i'm still having that thought)
Now is the time to chuck dear guitar aside first.
Plunge straight into the heart of my notes first.
straight inside and absorb like a spongebob.
Possible?
I think i'm losing it.
Losing the stamina in running this ever-so-tough marathon.
Sleep deprivation isn't something uncommon.
It's such an often sight that people do carry their eyebags around.
Due to the fugly eyebags that totally smacked a drug addict image to you,
your eyelids became that heavy that probably your eyes form a perfect straight line.

It's easy to lose the time for sleeping,
but it's never easy to earn back the lost hours in sleeping.
I can't never catch up with my sleep.
Unless i HIBERNATE for maybe ONE FULL DAY.
Possible? nope!

While few of my frinds are at grapevive catching a soccer match,
i was home trying to catch up some rest and get back to studies BUT
to no avail.
Studies do deprive you from all the fun out there.
GAHHH! before i go on and on..
i should just stop here.
Alright JUMP AND FALL back into notes, maybe!

10:36 PM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

to believe again.

Dashboard Confessional - Belle of the Boulevard

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

It feels very much as though being trapped in a gulf.
It's not the right time to wallow into sentimentality at the corner.
I guess my brain is saturated and tired from the word 'studying'.
The reason for my thoughts to drift apart.
It feels very much like A`levels all over again.
With the mugging.
With the uncertainties.
With the shitloadful things to cram into the puny brain.
Belief, is what i need desperately now.

9:40 PM

stay rooted to the ground.

Jay Z ft Rihanna & Kanye West - Run This Town

Feeling it coming in the air,
hear the screams from everywhere,
Im addicted to thrill
( i used to dislike this song due to the 'woah-woah-woah' background vocal. however, the contradicting or perhaps i should term it retarded me likes the song now)

I do wonder why my tear glands are so active at times.
Don't try to correct me that it's MOST of the time.
Well, i kinda burst into tears out of a shock?
Yeah i can even be more dumb than this.
Who on earth start tearing over a thing like this.

(Right, i forgot what to mention what it is.)

First of, lt was almost knocked by a car due to her negligence in the other flow of traffic. She went on telling jus and i about her 'blurness' which can be fully taken a fact as it is.
While walking back, it happened again. But i was quite behind her.
So yeah first reaction was to shout "HEY CAREFUL!"
She stood there frozen and saying 'yes don't worry i know' in a freaked out manner, for the obvious.
Like seriously, wth. the car was driving pretty fast in my aspects.
WHAT A FREAKING EMBARASSING JOKE to be tearing due to this mild shock.
okay, period.

I need to work it out with my tear glands.
Well, i can picture my ten thousand braincells going for a strike against me for making them worked so hard today.
Why do they have to phrase the lecture notes in such a manner that it's confusing in its own ways.
Alright, till the next entry!

PS: PRESS ON PEOPLE! (:

1:42 AM

Monday, October 26, 2009

barely breathing.

Kris Allen - Live Like We're Dying (originally by The Script)

Yeah gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock thats tickin
Gotta live like were dying

I'm hungry now.
And there's things not done.
I need to find my focal point.
Balancing it can't be that tough, can it?
Well, enjoy the song above and go to bed.

11:02 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

climbing to the peak.

Beyonce - Broken Hearted Girl

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

Sometimes, no matter how hard you tried to focus,
you can't seem to be able to.
At times, you wish you could just wipe and sweep everything aside,
not focusing on the flaw smacked in your face,
you can't, but focus.

I tried my best to communicate with my communication but to no avail.
Stress level is building up.
And everyone feels the heat.
Literally yet not literally.

I ran for the first time in my life after 453029482years has passed.
My stamina has fallen to zero or rather maybe i didn't catch enough wink last night.
Well, my vision was near blackout for quite some time.
It's nerve-wrecking as i thought i would probably fall dead the next moment.
(TRYING TO BE DRAMATIC IF YOU'RE SHITTING OUT OF FEAR NOW)
Some part of my stress has been shook away.
Yet, the pile of notes that i have to study, understand and most likely memorise are stacked moutain-high.
Okay, i shan't go on lest anyone who's going to have exams soon will freak out with me.
I should freak out internally.
And maybe explode internally too.

Something funny:

Sister: Don't worry. BROWNIE'S A PEOPLE-DOG!
Mana: BUT I'M NOT A DOG-PEOPLE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA TO THE MAXXXXZ!

That's All For Now Folks(:

10:33 PM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Trying to Breathe under the books.

Jesse James - I Look So Good (without you)

I look so good without you
Got me a new hair do
Looking fresh and brand new
Since you said that we were through

This is the song i have just learnt to strum.
And if you were to ask me, i can strum most songs so long there isn't F and Bm chords.
Anyway, strumming has became part of my routine.
Am definitely loving the way i can express myself with my guitar.
And well, seriously, studying kills and it causes my brain to be so burnt.

On a random note, i wonder why do people love standing in front of the plasma teevees that are on displayed?
I mean okay, i get the point that they show movies like FantasticFour and etc.
But seriously, is there a need for the crowd to form and block the way of others?
Well, typical Singaporeans or is this an innate defect in us, humans?
Oh well, starbucks is my second spot to sit for hours after hours just to get shitloadful of information into my head.
Information overloaded but there isn't a choice i guess.
Since we are down with 13days before the first paper.
I'm starting to question what i'm doing now is the right way to keep up with work.

Being able to study is a fortune,
but when you are being fortunate to have that.
Things will be taken for granted.
We will ask for something different.

Humans never be satisfied.
We live in an irony and be one ourselves.
We do contradict ourselves.
Have you questioned yourself what you have been doing is what you exactly have complained about?
Or you are just too bothered by the self-centered mindset that you are often placed before others?

What's appreciation?
To me, they can be shown through simple words and gestures.
Be thankful. For whatever you are having, for whatever others have done for you.
There isn't such a word called 'fairness'.
It's there in the dictionary for the utopia.
However, it's a world filled with flaws.
I guess we all just have to learn to deal with it.
Afterall it's these imperfections that mould us to be a better person.
Back to the word 'fairness',
I know there's no such thing as equal treatment.
But is putting a wee effort a toll for most?

Now, a question needed to be thrown straight to my face.
Am i dwelling into things more than i should?
well, it's just a facetious remark.. (new word that i've learnt! *beams* )
(This is how studying can damage one's mind)

To nanajiejie: there isn't a hidden message. (irony detected lol)

10:41 PM